I have so much to say
I really do
I just haven’t had the time to think lately
I flipped the other night
I woke up at 2 AM to a sickening, panicky feeling
So intense I couldn’t get back to sleep
I started crying and tossing and turning
Finally, my efforts were rewarded
The sweet man next to me awoke
Asking what was wrong in his half awake state
Its the scariest craziest most exciting thing ever
You know
I mean who knows what it’s going to be like
Who knows how I’m going to be like
It’s really going to be this all-encompassing thing
And I’m glad for it
I’m in need of lots of it
But in my mind it has this distant looming-ness to it
It’s so not real yet
I haven’t done much to prepare for it
I mean the last two years have been preparation
But how do you prepare for the unknown
You just gotta jump in
It’ll be nice to have the summer off to mentally prepare
It’s just so vague
