Have I ruined everything
With my incessant need for devotion
For intimacy
Will you allow it to continue
I want you all the more
I love you for your passion
The astounding sexiness of your demeanor
Your quiet calm
Like the eery stillness before the storm starts
You excite me
Just thinking about the ways you’ll delicately caress me
Inside and out
I’ve never had a better lover
I’ve never had a better friend
You always stand up for me
You always defend me
Even when I know I don’t deserve it
Your devotion in the absence of any formal promises
Is our unspoken contract
A somewhat dangerous way of believing
I’m told
But I can see it in your eyes
I can feel it in your touch
I hear it in your deepest breaths
The day it’s gone
I’ll know
And chances are I’ll be gone then too
I hate that day for its ominous presence
I hate the possibility that I’m naively vulnerable once again
But what is love without faith
Without trust
It is nothing
At least nothing that I want
Promises are as dangerous as those who make them
I know the extension of our love
Its growth is encouragement
That’s what I have to believe in
That’s what I know is real and true and perfect
