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Why am I so surrounded by doubt

Why do I feel neglected and alone

God, I am needy

He says its ok to be

I don’t see it

I really just want to be held

Believe me, I’ve resisted it

I’ve created space where I lack

So I have to deal without

I’m torn

I feel really torn

I run to comfort when I’m surrounded with frustration

Is that fair

Why am I always so concerned with fair

Maybe its just not going to be fair today

Maybe my heart is aching and my eyes are full

For a totally unfair and unjustified reason

But I can’t shake it

I want this reality that has no room to exist

I feel dis-ease

I feel dis-comfort

I have learned

A lot lately

But 

But what

You have lack

You are not enough for yourself

There I admit it

I’ve put myself out there in an entirely new way

Why do I feel like we’re pretending sometimes

I know better

But I’m not into listening to my head right now

I always end up taking things too far

I did not want to be here

I feel isolated

I feel alone